Oops did I just write that….
by : Shorok Ahmed
Oops did I just write that….
All
my life I have been flying against the wind and even when the odds were against
me I stepped on them and broke them, since I was little girl until now.
The odds says that a black free-minded girl who only cares about enjoying this
wild journey called life, who will never have more than what her world offers
her, that one day will have her own voice.
Everyone
thought and said that i will never be good at school even when I was bullied
for my color I used to pass all my classes not by being at the top of my class
but I used to pass with fine grades which was mentally challenging, those who
bullied me had better grades than me, and at that time they looked better than
me because they were white according to them and I’m black, I said to myself
FUCK THE ODDS i am going to graduate from high school and I will get the
highest degrees and I will be at the top in life, guess what I have Bachelor’s
degree in Business Administration and Master’s Degree in Project
Management BOOM just like that and those who bullied me most of them
didn’t even graduate from college or settled for a mediocre life and jobs,
while I became a well-educated girl, classy, sexy , beautiful so in love with
myself.
Fuck
The Odds when I said that I wanted to become an artist and everyone went
laughing at me and I was like OK keep doing it, the joke was on them at the
end, I always wanted to be in a reality musical show called star academy it’s
the French version of the American idols and whoever gets in is luckiest person
around but for political reasons and conservative reasons no girl from GCC ever
been in it and even when there were girls wanting to get in they’ve talked out
of it because it’s a reality show that air’s 24/7 and cameras following the
contestants everywhere from the toilet to bedrooms and everywhere else in the
house, plus boys and girls living in the same house, while me and my dad
kept it a secret and waited for the right moment to strike and those who
laughed at me and said that I will be out from the first week and you know what
for a seventeen years old girl that never been on stage I stayed for five weeks
and I did become the first girl from to be on that show and I didn’t fear the
hate and backlash that I got from family and society. Someone from the high
level asked my dad why she didn’t ask for permission, he answered with “well I
won’t kill my daughter’s dream for anything or anyone”.
Again
the odds are against me, making in Hollywood and show business as a Pop star
seems so far, I’m knocking every door, only one person from thousands of people
helped me without putting any boundaries on my dreams he’s the best thing that
happen to me I will not mention his name but he’s someone who helped me to
achieve 10% of my dreams by his support. Others did not because I am unfinished
product and what are the odds for a girl from the GCC who’s extremely
relentless and yes not to forget a feminist, they prefer someone that will not
stir the pot, plus the way i dress and the fact that i don’t take no for an
answer.
At
the end of day there’s 10% of life that I can’t control is the only thing that
could stop me from dreaming and achieving my dreams, the other 90% says that I
will make it because I worked so hard from the age seventeen until now and I’m
someone who believes in hard work and team work, so this dream is my life main
objective. I’m told that I am too much yet the same people invite pop
artist that are beyond exposed and well known for their reveling songs and when
it’s comes to me it’s too much I quote “Oh no you represent the country” ammm
excuse me what about all those events with different artists from everywhere
like I said known their open lifestyle. And there is this soda’s company
executive in the Middle East whom I emailed him with my project he responded
with “that in Middle East they no longer sponsor any artists anymore”, then why
the main headquarter in the US asked me to email the Middle East branch to ask
them for sponsorship, while knowing that they don’t. But like I said
again I will do it again and strike with my success, which I know that when I
become a finished product they will call me the pride of the nation. The only
away I will get support is if I bend the knee it actually happened someone
reached to me and my dad saying she shakes hands with high people and write her
demands then she will get what she wants meaning if i bend the knee, which I’d
rather die.
Whoever
read this post, if you’re a girl that is about to give up on your dreams
because of what the odds says let me tell you, don’t freakin give up keep
fighting, dreaming and working hard.
ShoroK♥♥
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